Confession: For a long time my weight loss efforts were tied to me achieving a certain look, and I associated being healthy with that look. It wasn’t until I started working out at Northwest Personal Training (NWPT) that my attitude changed.
Coming from a place of morbid obesity at the onset of my weight loss journey, I was losing the weight to save my life. I was so big — 388 pounds, so miserable. I could barely walk, barely breathe. I was taking meds to control my high blood pressure and I was on the verge of developing a slew of other health problems. Once I started shedding the pounds and working out regularly my focus changed. I seemed to be skewing health and looks together.
In retrospect, I now realize that working out in a corporate gym environment contributed to my skewed outlook. Sure, there were your average looking folks who were concerned with their health and fitness who worked out at the corporate gym, but mostly there were a lot of model like men and women. I started wanting to look like them. Be like them. I was pressuring myself to get to goal weight, obsessing over the scale, and trying to achieve a look. It was so superficial. So unreal. So unhealthy.
When I first started working out at NWPT in April, I had the same mentality — get to goal weight, wear a size x and be healthy, fit. That wasn’t happening fast enough and I was beating myself up. It was a conversation that I had with Sherri McMillian owner of NWPT that really started changing my focus. She told me that she wanted me not to worry so much about losing weight, but instead concentrate on getting stronger.
Months later, working out beside some of the strongest, healthiest folks at NWPT, I realize that healthy isn’t about looks. Healthy is a way of life. Exercising. And not just exercising at the gym, finding physical activities that you enjoy and making them a part of your life. Eating well. Resting. Loving yourself. I’m proud to say, I no longer am focused solely on the way I look. Rather, I’m focused on putting all the pieces together — it’s a holistic approach. Sure, I still want to get to goal weight and by doing so inevitably my looks will change. But now my focus is about truly being healthy and strong I’m not sure that really has a certain look.